Friday, November 7, 2008

Watch out for the scary, grumpy, preggo, hormonal, woman (that's me!)

Yes, it has been one of those days. Not a good pregnant day! As long as the baby is healthy and fine I'm thankful and happy, but everything else feels like crap :( It has been just a long, rainy icky day. What have I done today?

Thrown up ---------- : 2 times
Tried not to cry------ : 3 times
Cried my eyes out----: 2 times
Went to the bathroom: 20 billion times (something like that)

My back hurts like crazy and I have a migraine for the past two days, whats up with that? I rarely ever get headaches yet alone migraines. Arg! Arg! So many dishes and laundry, they look so gross but the effort to do it is just not worth it today. I know women have been going through this for thousands of years, but being pregnant can be so draining, I don't know how people can keep going!

I almost started crying while reading my email today about tips for taking care of a newborn, I don't know why. I think it was a mixture of excitement, honor (im going to have a baby!), and just the feeling of being overwhelmed. Everything seems to overwhelm me lately. From the chores, trying to be a good wife, trying to prepare to be a good mom, cooking... just everything. It all makes me kinda depressed. I then feel so guilty for feeling depressed. I mean, I have the best husband in the world, we live in a beautiful area, Im becoming a mom. There should be no reason for me to be so down! Ah, I guess I'll just keep taking everything in stride.

On a happier note I made a boxed chocolate cake.. mmm! I didn't cook it though. I just all of the sudden craved a bowl of cake batter, so I made the batter and just left out the raw eggs. Of course, when I started to get everything out to make it I discovered that there were no clean bowls so I had to use a casserole dish. I felt like such a mooch sitting there in my pajamas, watching daytime tv, eating my cake batter out of a casserole dish. That made me start to get all weepy but I didn't cry! :) well, hubby will be off of work soon so time to like, take my hair out of a sloppy poney and brush it out all cute. Yeah! Hubby will be home soon!

Monday, November 3, 2008

14 Week Baby Bump!

Yeah! The baby is finally making it's presence know to the world! I have known since the beginning, in fact I am reminded every time I run to the bathroom to puke up my guts or when ever I start dry heaving for no apparent reason. Ah! The joys of pregnancy! ;) Honestly... I really could not be any more happy or fulfilled. Even when I am feeling dinner coming back up, I cant help but to say a prayer of thanks that the baby is alive and well.

But it's really nice having a belly to show for everything! It not only makes everything more real for me, but also my hubby. Now that he can actually see that the baby is in there he seems even more excited and in awe everyday, I didnt even think that was possible :)

Yesterday was one of the first days where people really noticed, I never thought I would be so happy for people to stare at my belly. I have been getting extra smiles from other shoppers, the bag boys are more careful with my things, people hold doors more often, and today while standing in a line to vote I was offered a seat. It was odd, My husband and I were standing in line for over an hour when we finally neared the polling booths. There was an empty chair just a few people ahead of me, and since the people ahead of me were quite a bit older I didn't even think about sitting down. I though "save it for the people who could really use it" Yes, my back was hurting (as it has been so far all through my pregnancy) but I didn't really think about it till one of the women pushed the chair towards me and urged me "here, sit down, you'll feel better." i honestly was quite taken a back, I didnt think I looked that pregnant. I wasn't going to take the chair because I didn't really need it; but she looked so eager to help and I could tell she wanted me to sit down so I did. I don't know why but I found it odd, but I'm the pregnant woman that you see when you go out! Woo Hoo! I look pregnant!!!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Problem solved

I'm 14 weeks pregnant, sick to my stomach, extremely tired, and I cant fall asleep. I decided to start this blog right now because I'm too tired to do anything else but cant stand to stare at the ceiling anymore. I was going to write about the joy of being a newlywed, how excited I am about having a cute little bebe soon, and how beautifully I cleaned my husband's and mine walk in closet. But after setting up my blog, deciding between a bunch of stupid titles for my blog (all of the good ones are taken!) looking for forever for the perfect layout(then changing it 10 times), I am now extremely exhausted again and ready for bed again. So thats it, problem solved... good night!